change for the better

Bismillah

mood : melancholy

There's just that one time when you realised  how much sins you have committed that you feel soooo ashamed to ask for anything from Him. 

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i was pondering over my past.

 For the past 19 years 20 years, there's not much things i've done as a muslim. even, the turning point in my life here in KY, it was far from being all good throughout. i slipped sometimes you know. in fact, a lot of time. It's hard to get used to it.  That little hijrah i made once, i fear if it lost its momentum- not that it's a huge step i'm doing  , but for me personally, it is.

It's good to realise that you have a bigger and more significant purpose in everything that you do each day. For example, i remember back in those days , i used to despise couple *no offences* , but it was nothing more than just a self-principle,something i believe that's morally right/ wrong, or  perhaps because of my judgement between the consequences, the pros and cons.

 nothing more. nothing less.

then, alhamdulillah.one of the many things i learn when i started to see things -at least, much clearer, is that you can start to put a better aim to what you do. so that it gives you the drive to stick to your stand(which is, by any means not restricted to only the couple part) and also believe in the rewards behind it. eventually, when the time came you are actually enjoying what you sacrifice or did for the sake of Allah. 

take it as an advice.but, it is most of all is a reminder for myself. this brings back memory of what kak hasanah used to say to me

'benda paling penting rasanya ialah untuk tahan diri atas jalan kebaikan'

jadi, bertahanlah wahai hamba2 Allah. sometimes a change is indeed 'berat'. and our heart not always truthful, and often, it deviates much. nafs is the biggest challenge you have to fight within yourself. it is as a matter of fact, a jihad. 

Dari Muadz Ibnu Jabal bahwa Rasulullah sallallaahu ‘alaihi wa sallam bersabda kepadanya: “Aku wasiatkan kepadamu wahai Muadz agar engkau jangan sekali-kali setiap solat meninggalkan doa:

اللَّهُمَّ أَعِنِّي عَلَى ذِكْرِك وَشُكْرِك وَحُسْنِ عِبَادَتِك 

[Ya Allah, tolonglah aku untuk selalu mengingat-Mu, bersyukur kepada-Mu, dan memperbaiki ibadah 

kepada-Mu].” (HR. Ahmad, Abu Daud dan Nasa’i)

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kita berdoa bukan sebab ingin memberitahu tuhan hajat kita, kerana dengan tidak memberitahu pun, Allah itu  maha Mengetahui. tapi sesungguhnya doa itu, bukti pengharapan dan kebergantungan kita kepadaNya.

and one of the many prayers i had i my mind is, so that please2 ... i hope.Ya Allah, fan away all the laziness in me and my friends here to strive to become a better muslim in this world and in the hereafter.

AMIN.

kelesuan dalam bermujahadah itu, kerana salahnya langkah permulaan.

 betulkan niat.

:')